In your specific situation, it may be difficult to determine precisely what is causing the emotional numbness. The emotional numbness might shield an individual from the deep depths of depression, but the flipside of this is that they donвЂ™t feel happiness either. For some individuals, the emotional numbness that accompanies some psychiatric medications is considered beneficial, particularly for those experiencing extreme depression. It is a commonly reported side effect of antidepressant medication, in particular. I mention this because some individuals report feeling emotionally numb while on psychiatric medication. I wonder if you were feeling the emotional numbness before you started the psychiatric medication or if itвЂ™s a recent development, something that developed after you began the medicine. ItвЂ™s also important to consider the fact that you are currently taking several psychiatric medications. For instance, did you ever have a panic attack prior to smoking marijuana? Did you have feelings of anxiety prior to marijuana use? Knowing that information might help me to better understand how or why your mental health symptoms developed. It would be interesting to know if you experienced mental health symptoms prior to your use of drugs. This is one of the many hazards of drug use. It leaves one to wonder вЂњwhat exactly did I smoke?вЂќ or вЂњwas what I smoked laced with another drug? Angel dust? PCP? Heroin? Arsenic?вЂќ It is theoretically possible that you unintentionally smoked one or several harmful or dangerous substances in addition to the marijuana. With the marijuana bought on the street (or any other illegal drug), it is difficult to know precisely where the drugs come from or who creates them. Medical marijuana, for those purposes, is a highly controlled substance.

I understand that some individuals use medical marijuana for severe pain associated with disorders such as cancer or glaucoma. One thing to keep in mind about marijuana is that it is technically considered a hallucinogenic drug. We could never know if it was the use of marijuana that caused you to develop the mental health symptoms but it is a realistic possibility. I am aware of other individuals who have had a similar reaction, which is that they developed mental health symptoms, specifically feelings of depersonalization, after using drugs. Unfortunately, your story is not uncommon. What is wrong with me and what can i do about it? I really cant handle this, its terrifying. I feel like im going to lose control and im becoming a stranger in my own body. The emotional numbness scares me too, i want to be able to feel happy and exited again and not like a zombie. This scares me so much, i feel like i have nothing to look forward to. Its like im living in a weird dream that i just cant seem to wake up from. I feel like im slowly losing touch with myself and the world around me.

I forget easily and have alot of trouble concentrating. And now im in this weird state where i feel like im on autopilot. Then during the second it evolved into more depression than anxiety. It started as mainly anxiety for the first month. I have become so limited because of this. Im afraid to drink caffeine or eat anything that could possibly cause me any anxiety or worsen my feelings. I fear taking any kind of drug now due to an extreme fear of bodily sensations cause by bad marijuana experiences. Ever since that initial sober panic attack i have been in this anxious and depressed state. He prescribed me alprazolam and paxil and sent me on my way. One day, i had a panic attack while completely sober and was sent to the doctor. Whenever i did i would constantly be on alert for fear that i would have another panic attack. I just ignored the attacks and continued to smoke.

After about 2 years of use i began experiencing panic attacks. I used to be a recreational marijuana user.

Anxiety and depersonalization